Leaping

Sometimes in life we have to leap. And we don't always know the outcome of our leap. But we go blindly and with faith. Sometimes the leaps are little and sometimes they feel huge. And eventually we land or a parachute catches us after our leap. You never know when it is going to come but you hope and pray that your safety net is there quickly.

In thirteen days my children and I are packing up the van with clothes, favorite toys and the dogs and driving cross country. We are leaving Indiana. We are going back to Washington State. Randy will drive with us, and then fly back until we can figure out where he will transfer to. But Indiana and I don't get along to well. It tries to kill me and my body is fighting back.. but the fight is getting much harder and more than I can always do. My lungs are tired. My body is tired and my heart hurts that I am leaving my best friend here while I go to safety. But breathing is important. And we are doing what we have to do right now. Hard choices.

We have a whole lot of unknown. I am grateful for my parents welcoming us to their home. And grateful for many more family members and friends who will welcome us too. We don't have a lot of answers and all of the details right now. But we know that we are doing what we are supposed to be.

Today I have boxed up toys and things that aren't necessary right now. We have cleaned and organized. Replaced light fixtures and changed out faucets. Our home is for sale. And we have no idea where our next home will be. I am filled with so many mixed emotions. I have fantastic friends who I love dearly here. And the thought of moving far away makes me sad. But I know it is right.

We are leaping. We are taking a huge leap of faith and trusting in our Heavenly Father that He will help us land safely. My heart is filled with many emotions. I have fought back tears today realizing what is really happening in our life. And I have been blessed with the most amazing peace ever. We know this is right. But what is right isn't always easy. We have faith that the Lord will bless us as we trust in Him. And we are praying daily for the right plan to work out. We're leaping. A big giant leap.